“Carlos, you are just making trouble out of nothing!” Our German International Student, Hanna, used to say to me when I stress over something that she thought was not worth stressing about. She was, and still is, right though.
You see, I am a stresser, (not really a word). I like to, as Hanna put it, make trouble out of nothing. I stew over things, no matter how small. Sleeping for me is work time for my brain. That’s the time when all of my day’s issues get solved or I devised other ways of dealing with them. A presentation at work? When I’m done with it at about 2am, it’s a finely-honed delivery without any hiccups, too bad my audience would never hear it, instead they were privy to the water-down version. Well it wasn’t that watered down, since I actually did stew on it a few nights prior to the delivery date. My nocturnal labor has solved worked problems that I was working on and even found lost items! I retrace my wife’s steps to the likely places she could have ‘lost’ her cell phone.
I am an avid sports fan, especially hockey. When my team loses in the playoffs, it’s time for this fan to break down every what-ifs and near-miss scenarios. What if the puck hadn’t hit one of our players? We probably would have scored. How about the breakaway that he missed the open net on?
Maybe it’s a mental health issue and I need to talk to a brain sweeper to clear out the cobwebs that have been taking up residents in my cranial attic. (Wow! Did I just say that? That’s some serious lingo!) My wife insists that I should just shut my brain off and go to sleep. Easier said than done. Maybe she has a brain switch but I wasn’t blessed with one.
You might ask why don’t I do all that stressing and over-thinking during the day and sleep at night? Great question! Mind if I get back to you on that? I just need to maybe…stew on it a bit tonight.
Just My Take!